Monday 4 May 2020

Musings of my mind....


I don't remember much about my birth.
Some where, some place, some day, some time.....
As souls we were given the fredom to choose our our families on our journey through this earth.
I think I can recall the ecstasy on my parent's face as they held me in their arms for the first time, their feeling of joy on being reunited and I thought - YES..... these were they parents I had always wanted and I had made no mistake.....
They showered me with their love and affection, gifted me with a younger sister and a brother, and provided guidance with love and care. I grew up appreciating the values of non materialistic things and have learnt two invaluable lessons from them.
One, Human beings are far more important than money and things money can buy and second, family always holds the first priority, come what may..... They have been the pillars of support I can still rely on.They gave me the freedom to choose and take my own decisions in life and taught me to stick to those decisions.
I remember growing up with my siblings - fighting, laughing, playing and having fun throughout.At that time we did not realise that we were creating beautiful memories. We were just living our lives, sometimes even dreaming a distant dream which was not very clear but of success which was not defined at that time and of being a career woman. This, mainly because of my mother who is a homemaker although all my aunts were working and I envied the freedom their children always seem to have. I was quite determined not to deprive my children of this freedom in their growing up years.
I have always taken pride in being logical, down to earth, open minded and a practical person.
I was pursuing my PG in commerce along with CS when I got married. I dont know whether marriages are made in heaven or not but I do know that when two people decide to share their destinies and their lives together, there should be love, respect, trust and above all companionship amongst them. I feel blessed to have found such a life partner who respects me for who I am. He is loving, caring and nurturing, always willing to stand by me in whatever I choose to do. In more than 23 years of our marriage we have stood by each other in all the ups and downs of our lives, making our bond of friendship stronger with each passing day. If my parents gave me roots, my husband has given me wings to soar high in the sky. He has given me confidence and taught me to be self sufficient in the true meaning of the word.
However there was one aspect where our views did not match.he was not willing to have a working mother for our children. He was quite adamant on this front and finally I had to give in. With time I was blessed with two lovely sons. Today my elder son is going to be 22 and my younger one is 16 years old. When I look back, I do not regret even for a moment the decision to give priority to my family over everything else. I realise that my decision of bringing up to beautiful human beings has been the most rewarding career I could have chosen for myself.
I now look at my mother with more respect and know what all she had to sacrifice to be always there for us while we were growing up. 
While my children grew, I kept myself available for them, looking after their each and every need and providing them with a strong support, both emotional and otherwise.
Whenever I would feel tired, I would rejuvenate myself with sleep, poetry and literature. Yes.... reading is one of my hobbies and I also feel the stress flow out of me when I cook. I dream of a vacation all alone with beaches, books and biryani for company and of course silence, broken only the waves.....
Now that my children are quite self sufficient and are less demanding on my time, I decided to work for myself, trying to fulfill my long lost dream of a career. While I was looking around for options, I came to know of Image Consultancy as an up coming career and decided to pursue it.9 years down the line, I feel a sense of satisfaction looking around and seeing people whom I have helped move ahead in their lives and reach their dream roles and goals through managing their A, B, C of image ( Appearance, behavior and communication ). I realise that success is not being popular, it is not being rich. Success is looking back at your life with no regrets, being at peace with yourself and satisfied at having achieved  your aims in life. It is not for others to measure to your success but for you to feel it.
In the end I promise to myself that I shall strive to play all my roles with sincerity, confidence and perseverance as long as I am passing through this earth, till I am free again.....



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